Experiments,R-16 film, Late night cheering up and Totally Silent Vday (L Blogs#6 and Vlogs#5)

Belated Happy Valentine’s Day to everyone! I hope your Valentines weekend is full of love and you shared your love to everyone who deserves it. 😀

Experimental Vlog

I always spend my  weekends at my province, Cavite.While I was editing my last youtube video, I found this “cute” music that I can not help myself from listening to over and over again. I pictured a  travel vlog or just a “going home” vlog and my sister was not going home so it was a perfect time to make one so that she could still see our little puppies.

Did that make you smile? I hope it did. 😀

It’s my first try in filming, editing and making this kind of videos.I do not have those special cameras for anything like this and I only used an iPad mini and my android phone. So I am so sorry if some of the parts are low quality and dark. I think I want to make some more soon, when I get the chance and adventure to do so.

Deadpool Movie Date

Saturdays are always spent with my bf. I asked him for a movie date for valentines day. I didn’t get him anything, I didn’t think I needed to do so. IMHO, It’s always valentines day for him almost everyday that I am with him. We all know I tend to be the “crazy in love” one in this relationship.

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The movie was rated R-16, we were behind two teenage boys trying to buy some tickets and the cashier told them they cannot sell them the tickets due to the content of the film. I only knew why they were very strict about selling the tickets when we were already watching the movie. Deadpool was full of sexual puns and other “dirty” languages that I don’t think the 13-15 years old me can handle well.

After the movie we decided to walk home, it was a long walk home. I was actually not feeling well that day but I survived the walk ; some occasional stops at the town center to look around and just hang around at made it easier for me. We ate a simple dinner/merienda at the local “goto” (rice porridge) place near the catholic church and after that we proceeded to walk home. It was a nice day. 🙂 Simple Valentines celebration but I will remember it. I always do.

Late night depression attack

When I got home I took the time to take care of myself physically by taking a long warm bath and then cozy myself up into reading a book on my bed in preparation for my sleep. I fell asleep after a few pages of the novel and when I woke up it was already 10pm. As hard as I try I could not go back to sleep. I never thought that dose of caffeine I had a day ago would mess my sleep pattern up this badly. I then decided to browse the internet and check my emails.

One thing lead to another and the next thing I knew I was rummaging my sent emails. I went as far as year 2007. I do admit those years were far better than these past few years. I had a life. A life anyone would probably envy or wish for themselves but as I go further into the years I noticed stupid actions, not so good words exchanged and some regretful replies.

I received a card from my bf and I read it earlier. It was suppose to make me happy but I admit I feel like I am more defeated than ever (that’s also the reason why I decided to snooze a bit.) I never thought I actually messed up my own life in all it’s sides/aspects. I totally messed up and I can’t think of a way to make it better now than it was before. I wish I could but I am feeling hopeless already.

I sent a text message to my bf to thank him for the gift and day, to wish him a good day for the next day and also to tell him I am not feeling well emotionally. I was not expecting a reply from him anymore. It was past 11pm already and I know after our “date” me-time is commenced by both parties. He called me up, it was a nice gesture. I think he just didn’t want me to feel so lonely during the day that was coming. He knows I don’t like it maybe because that particular occasion didn’t really have good memories for me. I appreciated his ways of cheering me up by singing and joking around. He didn’t want me to cry the valentines day away in my room. (which I was planning sans the crying part.)

That was the highlight of my 2016 Valentines day: vulgar languages, throwback regrets and sweet late night smiles and cheering up. It was well and until now as I write this entry I couldn’t help my emotions take over, a smile here and maybe an occasional sigh of regret but I know I will remember this day.

A normal day

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It seems like February 14 is something that Filipinos are very crazy about. The day after the Chinese new year all those Valentines day merchandise are already selling like hotcakes at the sidewalks and malls. I myself never celebrated it with someone special. It was typically a normal day for me. I do get occasional roses, balloons or chocolates from people who are assigned to do so and some from my special someone but I usually spend the day alone and minding my own business.

I have no other plans but to stay at home and rest. I was not feeling so well physically and emotionally the night before, I did get over the emotional part but my body was not participating with me that day. I planned to go to church and shop with my mother at the local supermarket but I woke up with a massive headache, so my mother just gave me meds for it and left for church. I was not feeling well about that decision. I wish I could have gone with them but I guess my head decided for me. I woke up fairly late, ate some breakfast and took the meds my mother gave me earlier. I was feeling better so I decided to give all our puppies a bath, after a few minutes my mother arrived with my cousins. The little ones greeted me happy valentines day and I simply smiled and let them play with the dogs.

It was just a normal Sunday family day. We had lunch together and after that we minded our own businesses; which for me consists of reading, chatting with our nanny, cooking, sleeping and watching some YouTube videos or TV. We had dinner together and they liked what I cooked for them. It wasn’t special, it was just pork chops and fried chicken. I guess it is my family’s way of saying they appreciate me and what I do for them. After dinner I was already feeling light headed so I went straight to my room and waited for Mr. Sandman to prompt me to sleep.

Nothing special happened to me that day, as expected.

So how was your valentines weekend? I hope you had a memorable one worth sharing and writing about. 🙂

‘Til next post

♥L

 

 

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