Drained. (WOLM#28)

I come here to write about what I am currently feeling, it’s not the positive feeling.

I feel drained when I wake up in the morning. Tension and anxiety run in my brain from the minute I wake up to the time that I am about to go sleep.

In the end, I find myself in a stagnant position.

It’s not a nice feeling. I hate not doing anything. Is it fun to have a stable job with nothing to do? No. Is it fun to hang around the house with nothing to do? No.

I am a workaholic stuck in a body of a procrastinator. I do not know what to do. I need to set goals but I find myself distracted or simply hopeless in a task I deem to not be successful or unique.

Why do I give up so easily? Challenges used to be my friend. Now, it is my foe. I used to love it when I am in a competition or simply something that let my brain do all the work. Now, I am simply finding an activity that requires the least amount of effort.

Why is this happening to me? I really do not have any idea.

Stressed out?

Overworked?

Hopeless?

Hormonal Imbalance?

Mental Health Issues?

Depression?

I really do not know.

I try my best to help myself cope with this feeling of passiveness. Reading books, scribbling on paper, writing whatever is on my mind, etc. but I still cannot find what makes me contented with my life.

I have contemplated a whole lot about ending my stay here on earth but there is one thing that stops me from attempting itβˆ’HOPE.

The hope that this is just a part of my life and not the whole of it.

The hope that one day things will be better than it is now.

The hope that one special day I will look in the mirror and tell myself “Look at you now. You have gone through many obstacles but you are now the winner.”

The hope that one day there will be less heartbreaks and more heartfelt sweet moments.

I am still positive.

Positive that one day I can tell the world that I had my own share of hardships larger than anyone will ever think of and that I am still there sharing all of it.

I am sorry for the sad entry. I am not feeling well but I also want everyone to know that I am still here, struggling but fighting.

β™₯L

WOLM #27

Why?

This is the question I usually ask myself.

Why do I have to end up like this?

Why do I have to endure more than her/them?

Why did I choose to be here than far away from it?

Why do I get into these kind of situations?

Why.

At the end of the day I never really find the answers to these questions.

I forget it and when time comes I ask it again to myself and like before I fail to answer the questions.

I am tired of asking these questions.

I am unhappy when I have to ask these questions to myself.

I want it to stop it already.

β™₯L

 

WOLM #26

I haven’t had time for blogging,it saddens me. 😦

Right now, I actually have no idea what to write. My mind is blank and I am simply free writing. I have so many in my mind for an idea and I have a review that I should start writing about. I guess I did not enjoy reading the book and I am trying my best to squeeze out anything out of my mind but I guess I shouldn’t pressure myself to trying my best to do so.

I hope to be able to write good. I want to be better but I feel so dumb when it comes to vocabulary or even writing in English. I do not have enough skills to be the best but I do know I can enhance it but I feel I am not worth that much.

I am mumbling now. I am sorry,reader. My mind is full of so many thoughts and I want to write it down but now that I am it all disappeared.

’til next post (hopefully a happier one,well written and composed.)

β™₯L

Bookbed Dugtungan (L Blogs#14)

Do you have this little urge to write a story but don’t know where to start or do you want to practice your writing skills this month?

I got the right activity for you!

If you are a regular reader of my little blog you all know that I am contributing and sharing short stories,book reviews and article(s) (singular for now because I only have one posted but I hope to contribute more) on bookbed.

I am very excited to share this activity the bookbed editorial team made for everyone and I want to invite anyone interested in joining me (yes I signed up!)Β  and other bookbed storytellers on this project.

What project/activity?

bookbed-bedside-stories-dugtungan

The activity is called Dugtungan. Basically , the end result may be a short story, novelette or novel that is co-written by everyone who joined in on the fun.

More Information and how to register for Dugtungan here.

I wanted to share this because sharing is caring . ahaha.

Joking aside, I want to share this great idea of an activity because it is a great way for aspiring writers to practice and enhance their writing skills, and gain a little more confidence when it comes to their new found or old flame with writing. πŸ™‚

I hope you join me and the bookbed community in such a great collaboration. πŸ˜€

See you soon or read you soon. πŸ˜€

β™₯L

LSS week #6 and Short Blog Update (L blogs# 13)

My blog has been quiet last week and I am very sorry about that. I just started my first week on my summer job and I didn’t have the energy to write because I wake up early and get home around 5pm. I am also focusing on spending my summer as far away from the internet world and more with my family and love ones.

So how’s your summer going? OH it’s summer here on my side of the globe and it is very very HOOOOT!

Sooo without further a-do I give you my week 6 song pick πŸ™‚

This song is somewhat overplayed on my preferred radio station and it really is one of the songs that gives me a last song syndrome.

Song Title: Secret Love Song

Artist: Little Mix fest. Jason Derulo

 

Enjoyed the song?

I hope to update more this week, I have something that I want to review and also my weekly weekend adventure blog. πŸ™‚

I also have a scribble in store for everyone. I hope to share it soon. πŸ˜€

Oh and bookbed has this activity open for everyone and I want to share it to you. I will update you on it on a separate blog post due tomorrow. (I am writing it after I finish this post.XD)

Have a great week!

β™₯L