It has been a while!

My boyfriend asked me these questions the other day: “What happened to your writings? When will you write again?”

My answer was a mere sigh.

I do miss writing, I do miss sitting around, tapping on my computer’s keyboard and letting my imagination run free. But in life, (as cliche as my next statement is) we all grow old for something we did before. Sometimes it is voluntarily leaving this hobby or involuntary because of how our life paths are leading us to.

So my answer to my boyfriend’s question is,

Soon, but not so soon. I need to have more time to concentrate on what I choose to be in life. I am still building myself to become what I dream of being.

I will still keep writing but not too often. I will still share my thoughts with you. Whoever is there reading my blog posts, published works online, etc.

Thank you for staying with me and understanding.

โ™ฅ L

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Reading Challenges, anyone? {Updated: January 24,2017}

Reading has been part of my life since I was taught to read when I was in kindergarten. My mother purchased a whole set of children’s picture book to encourage me and my sister to read aloud and read as many as possible. It is probably due to my mom being a wide reader herself. She wanted to pass her hobby to her two little girls and she did not fail on that life goal.

I am not a person who has those new year’s resolution but I do set one year-long goal for myself every year.This year my goal is to read more than the past few years.

Ever since I focused on finishing Dentistry I had to set aside this hobby of mine. I still read a book or two every year but I know that it is not enough.

With that long overdue goal done, (I am patiently waiting for the DLE results as I write this) I have all the time to focus on myself and my pastimes. It also help lessen the stress and the anxiety of waiting for the results. It’s like my brain’s stress ball.

Research her and research there

So I was looking around the inter webs and on facebook for tips and what to put on my to-be-read book pile, when I encountered an article about reading challenges.

Reading Challenges, what’s that?

Basically, a reading challenge can be classified into two (based on my observation.)

One form has reading prompts and the other tracks down how many books you have read throughout the year.

I have tried the latter challenge last year but did not hit my goal of reading 24 books in a year because “dentistry is calling” .

This year I want to try out the reading challenges with prompts. I think it will help me in making up my mind on what book to read next.

Reading Challenges I will participate in

Bookbed’s Reading Challenge

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I told myself to read more local books this year and I know this will help me in my mini goal leading to my year long goal of reading more. ๐Ÿ™‚

I hope you can join us as well and use #BookbedReadsPHLit so that we know you are participating.

Currently reading:—-

Finished:

[x] Any book by a Filipino author: Smaller and Smaller Circles by F.H. Batacan

 

PopSugar Reading Challenge

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Finished reading:

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Currently Reading:

A book involving travel: The Last Little Blue Envelope by Maureen Johnson

So with all of these challenges, I think I can reach my reading goal. ๐Ÿ™‚ Will you join me in facing this challenges?

Comment down below if you will and what you think about reading challenges.ย  If you have book suggestions, don’t be shy to tell me. ๐Ÿ™‚

’til next post!

โ™ฅL

 

 

 

Bring it on, 2017!

Hello anyone out there!

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I am so sorry to be MIA these past few weeks after my last post.

Did you enjoy reading that review? I hope I made you consider reading that book for this new year. ๐Ÿ™‚

Thankful for a blessed 2016

I have read so many post on facebook about what everybody is thankful for last 2016 and I also do a similar way of thanking everyone every year on my tumblr and my previous blog. This year is not an exception, so brace yourself because this might be a really long blog post.

First and foremost, I would like to thank God for giving me another year to live on earth. For guiding me to the right path and for giving me strength to conquer all of life’s challenges. I know I will not be in this position in my life without Him.

I thank my family for encouraging me to fight and finish what I started. I couldn’t have done it without all their pushing and cheering for me to pass the written board exam and up until this moment they are rooting for me and my success for the practical phase. My success is and will be their success as well.

To my friends and new found friends, I thank you for giving a little space in your heart for little ‘ol me. I know I have a whole lot of mistakes to some of you but I am still thankful that you choose me to be part of your lives.

I will specifically mention these people…

Marj.ย  My high school best friend and my laotong. Thank you for keeping up with me and my dramas and emotional instabilities. You truly deserve all the blessings you have received during the past year. Thank you for supporting me in whatever the hell I put myself into with my life. I wish that you will have more blessings and success this 2017. Never forget that your laotong, Lucille will always be here for you through thick or thin, ups and downs and in any situation you also get yourself into. See you soon! ๐Ÿ™‚

To my dear boyfriend, Thank you for staying despite all the unlucky events that bombarded you last year. I know it is not easy to keep up with personal problems together with a very moody and sensitive girlfriend. Thank you for trying your best to lift my spirits up whenever I feel down. I know I sometimes forget that you need me more than I needed you last year. I will do my best to be a better girlfriend for you this 2017.

Bookbed , KB , Allana and my booktungan batch 1 groupmates,ย  I know I may be too enthusiastic (borderline annoying) but you all tried your best to make me feel like I belong to your group. Thank you for the opportunity to share what I write through your website. I feel very blessed to have met all of you. Without this little confidence that this organization and booktungan gave me, I do not know if I would be able to express myself through writing. Thank you for opening up a new section in my life that I sincerely enjoy being part of.ย  I owe a whole lot to Bookbed and I hope to work and help you more in spreading your #ReadingNation campaign this 2017. ๐Ÿ˜€

Challenging Start for a new year

This first week of January will be a big turning point in my career as a budding dentist. It will be my practical exams and I am anxious already. These past few days, my dominant hand is showing signs of an early manifestation of Carpal Tunnel syndrome (this is what my sister told me). I am currently taking pain relievers whenever I feel pain and I was also prescribed an ointment to soothe the pain and stiffness that I feel.

I am still awaiting my next move in the #YAI2017 project and I am eager to start my story once it is approved and all set to go. I hope what I submitted is worth reading.

My best friend started her new year by trying her writing prowess on a flash fiction activity that she has on her IG account. I actually want to do a similar project of writing everyday. I might start it after I am done with my board exam and it will either be posted on this blog or kept privately until I feel it is all good to show all of you.

They say to become a better writer one must write more, and I do think that is correct. I hope to share more stories with all of you this year.

Okay, enough blabbing! I want to wish you all a Happy, blessed and prosperous new year. Thank you for sticking around and reading this long post.

โ™ฅL

 

The board exam aftermath

It has been months since I wrote anything here.
Two days after taking the Dentist’s license examination, I am back! ๐Ÿ™‚

So what’s up?

Right now as I am writing this blog post, I am currently confused on what #romanceclass eBook to read, I checked Bookbed for book reviews but I am still puzzled.
As of now, I am intrigued to read “The Hometown Hazard” by Dawn Lanuza but I am picking between it and 2 more titles. The last two I have on my list do not have Bookbed reviews yet. Their Amazon ratings are close to each other but I have not yet checked their Goodreads reviews, I assume all three books would probably have the same ratings as their amazon ratings.
so…..T_T help, anyone?
What if I just buy all 3? hahaha.

How was the exams?

I hav heard this question 10 or more times since Saturday.I really have no specific word for it. I am simply happy that I feel free after months of being stuck inside my room to study but I feel anxious to know if my name is included in the “passed” list. I know I did my best in answering the questions but I am still nervous.

 

In other news…

 

So much has happened to me these past few months. ๐Ÿ˜€

 

If you follow this blog the last posts I made redirects you to #MVRedemption on Bookbed, I have been having fun writing this story with my co-writers. ๐Ÿ˜€ It is still on-going.

 

I have also tried my luck on applying for a writing mentoring program and I passed! ๐Ÿ˜€ I will be under the training hands of Mrs. Kath Castillo Eustaquio-Derla, the author of Before I do andย  What Am I to youย โ€”also published online on Bookbed.ย  I am thrilled to be part of her program and there are a whole lot of things in store for next year! ๐Ÿ˜€ I hope you are still there to support me, pray for me and to cheer me on. ๐Ÿ˜€

 

2016 is still not over and we have a few more days but I am enthusiastic about what 2017 have for me.

 

I will now end this post with one of the songs that best describes my 2016. ๐Ÿ˜€

 

 

I hope you enjoy listening to it.

 

โ™ฅL

Short Hiatus in preparation for Licensed DMD Examinations. (WOLM#30)

I have been too busy with Dentistry these past few days. I started to review and practice for the national licensure exams. Of course, I miss writing for all of you but I need to finish this part of my life before time runs out. Everyone, including me, is showing signs of impatience when it comes to my relationship with my chosen course.

 

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It lasted 8 long years and I am glad that it is almost over. Between finding myself and what I want to do I decided to stick to this career path rather than change to something more convenient to everyone and myself.

With the help of everyone telling me “Sayang naman yung pinagaralan mo.” on the side, I later on went back to study what I needed to finish. It is somewhat by force but I pushed myself to go back so I cannot blame anyone besides myself.

One reason why I felt alone ,sad and even depressed was this college degree but I could say that I am already near my happiness because I now see light at the end of the tunnel. A little bit more effort and sacrifices and I will be able to finish this part of my life and close it. I can tell myself that I did all I can, with the help of the people around me, to finish and end this miserable part of my life.

I need more motivation and patience to end victoriously.

I should not let anything or anyone stop me from achieving and attaining success.

I ask for prayers and encouragements from all of you so that I can accomplish and finish these tasks triumpantly.

I also hope for understanding in terms of posting and blog entries. This blog may not be maintained while I am in the process of accomplishing what needs to be done.

I still have one more book review in store for everyone and I am starting to write the review and it may be posted this weekend. That entry might be my last review post for my personal blog, for now. I will still update everyone on my status and how I am feeling but I cannot promise to accomodate extracurricular activities during my review period.

I hope you won’t leave me while I am in the process of building my life in terms of my chosen profession.

‘Til next blogpost!

โ™ฅL

On mother’s day. (WOLM #29)

I know you never consider each other as family.

It seems like both of you do not like each other.

I hope while you are out with her family on a mother’s day you remember mine.

I hope you remember without her there won’t be someone who would give her all to make you feel important in this world.

I hope you remember her and the way she picks me up after you fight or make me feel worthless.

I hope you thank her for being there when you cannot be the one who would lift my spirits up.

I hope that one day you and her can agree and be one family.

and I hope one day you will only have your mother and mine to greet and thank during this day.

 

โ™ฅL

Drained. (WOLM#28)

I come here to write about what I am currently feeling, it’s not the positive feeling.

I feel drained when I wake up in the morning. Tension and anxiety run in my brain from the minute I wake up to the time that I am about to go sleep.

In the end, I find myself in a stagnant position.

It’s not a nice feeling. I hate not doing anything. Is it fun to have a stable job with nothing to do? No. Is it fun to hang around the house with nothing to do? No.

I am a workaholic stuck in a body of a procrastinator. I do not know what to do. I need to set goals but I find myself distracted or simply hopeless in a task I deem to not be successful or unique.

Why do I give up so easily? Challenges used to be my friend. Now, it is my foe. I used to love it when I am in a competition or simply something that let my brain do all the work. Now, I am simply finding an activity that requires the least amount of effort.

Why is this happening to me? I really do not have any idea.

Stressed out?

Overworked?

Hopeless?

Hormonal Imbalance?

Mental Health Issues?

Depression?

I really do not know.

I try my best to help myself cope with this feeling of passiveness. Reading books, scribbling on paper, writing whatever is on my mind, etc. but I still cannot find what makes me contented with my life.

I have contemplated a whole lot about ending my stay here on earth but there is one thing that stops me from attempting itโˆ’HOPE.

The hope that this is just a part of my life and not the whole of it.

The hope that one day things will be better than it is now.

The hope that one special day I will look in the mirror and tell myself “Look at you now. You have gone through many obstacles but you are now the winner.”

The hope that one day there will be less heartbreaks and more heartfelt sweet moments.

I am still positive.

Positive that one day I can tell the world that I had my own share of hardships larger than anyone will ever think of and that I am still there sharing all of it.

I am sorry for the sad entry. I am not feeling well but I also want everyone to know that I am still here, struggling but fighting.

โ™ฅL

WOLM #27

Why?

This is the question I usually ask myself.

Why do I have to end up like this?

Why do I have to endure more than her/them?

Why did I choose to be here than far away from it?

Why do I get into these kind of situations?

Why.

At the end of the day I never really find the answers to these questions.

I forget it and when time comes I ask it again to myself and like before I fail to answer the questions.

I am tired of asking these questions.

I am unhappy when I have to ask these questions to myself.

I want it to stop it already.

โ™ฅL

 

WOLM #26

I haven’t had time for blogging,it saddens me. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

Right now, I actually have no idea what to write. My mind is blank and I am simply free writing. I have so many in my mind for an idea and I have a review that I should start writing about. I guess I did not enjoy reading the book and I am trying my best to squeeze out anything out of my mind but I guess I shouldn’t pressure myself to trying my best to do so.

I hope to be able to write good. I want to be better but I feel so dumb when it comes to vocabulary or even writing in English. I do not have enough skills to be the best but I do know I can enhance it but I feel I am not worth that much.

I am mumbling now. I am sorry,reader. My mind is full of so many thoughts and I want to write it down but now that I am it all disappeared.

’til next post (hopefully a happier one,well written and composed.)

โ™ฅL